I still remember very vividly when I read that text: How did we get so lucky (smiley face)
Now, thinking back on it, it only brings tears to my eyes. It makes me think, how the hell did we get so unlucky? the way things turned out, is not the way they should have turned out. Or maybe they did, I don’t know, I’m still trying to figure that out.
How did we get so unlucky? where would I be if I had never met you. Who would I be? Would I have been happier? I am miserable now. And it’s all because of you.
How did we get so lucky, you ask? YOU got lucky. Because I gave you everything. My love, my heart, my soul. You only took from me, and never gave back. How exactly did this bring ME any luck? I thought you were the one, and now you don’t even exist in my world. You have brought me nothing but pain and heart-ache. You took everything I had to offer to a lover.
Now I’m like an empty shell.
Feeling like I’m waiting for something that is never going to happen.
What exactly am I waiting for? I don’t even know, and that’s the worse part.
I hate feeling this way. When will this go away?
aah there it is. I’m waiting for this feeling to go away. That’s all I really want. I want to be immune to all this. Where I don’t have to cry every time I start to remember. Where my knees won’t go weak from the thought of you. Where my heart won’t sink in and give me that cold chill down my spine with mere mention of your name.
I want to be me again. I want to love fearlessly again
I’m so tired of being tired.